Archive for February, 2008

False Alarm Part II

Just as an update, “Aunt Flo” showed up within hours of me taking the damned pregnancy test.  (Wasted money pisses me off!)

However, I’m still wondering what is going on…

  • my period is never late, but was 4 days late this month
  •  it finally arrived right after I took the home pregnancy test
  • I typically have a 4-day cycle.  Three days in, it has stopped, twice so far
  • I’ve still been feeling nauseous off and on
  • I’m still way more tired than usual

Should I take that second test?  Or is something else making my body act so damn wacky??


False Alarm

My body runs like clockwork–I am never late. This month though, I was four days late! I was sure I was preggo.

I had some mixed feelings over that concept. If I were planning to have a baby, this certainly wouldn’t be the time I’d choose. However, I also believe that things happen as they are meant to, so if I was pregnant, it was meant to be.

Took the test last night, and this was the result we got…
Negative Pregnancy Test

I was very disappointed.

Apparently four days is long enough to begin to imagine your life changing–and liking the idea–a lot. To overlook (at least temporarily) the fears and doubts of becoming a mother again at the age of 40. And to start dreaming of holding that little bundle in your arms…soothing him or her when they cry…seeing the first smile, the first step… *sigh*

What’s meant to be will be…

Updated Big Bang List

This is a very cool idea from Mel at Monday Morning Power. I originally posted this here, and now I’m updating because the list has g-r-o-w-n!

*Start Copy Here*

You do not have to be tagged to play along. This game is simple and so are the rules.

1. Copy from *Start Copy Here* through *End Copy*
2. Add your site(s) to the list. Just be sure to post at each site you add.
3. Tag or don’t tag, your choice, however, the more tags you create the bigger the list will grow.
4. Let me know your blog’s name and url by leaving me a comment HERE. I will add you to the master list. (If you would like a scroll box code, leave me your email address and I will email it to you.)
5. Come back and copy the master list back to your site often. This process will allow late-comers to get as much link benefit as the first ones in. Once you are on the master list people who have participated earlier will update their bookmarks and help everyone lower than them out on the list.

Note: In order to be included on this master list you need to first post the “Big Bang” on the site(s) that you want included. Add your site at the end of the list. Then leave me a comment that you have done so.

Also, I encourage everyone who is on this list to double check the link and make sure it correctly points back to your site. If there are any issues please let me know and I will immediately make the correction.

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(Don’t forget to include the links in the scroll box below!)


Have you ever felt alone?  Really alone?  When there is someone right in the next room?

That’s the way I feel today.

Feeling Kind of Down

I need a job.  One that pays money.  Every week.  I’m sick of not being able to do anything, go anywhere or even buy myself the most basic things.  Having a car would help tremendously in the job search, but I can’t afford to buy a car until I have a job.

My boyfriend, whom I love dearly, sometimes talks about moving out of the state, or even out of the country.  What he doesn’t seem to talk about is how I fit into those plans, and he doesn’t ask how I’d feel about moving to one of these places.  Maybe that, in itself, is all that needs to be said (or  unsaid).  In either case, when he mentions the moving issue and leaves me out of it, I feel exactly that:  left out.  Hurt.  Not sure if he really wants me in his life.  Scared.  Really hurt.

My New Baby!

Announcing the Birth of~

Real World Mom Enterprises

As some of you may know, I have been blogging here on for a few months now. It’s become my passion!

Real World Mom was actually owned by my significant other, T (author and mastermind behind The Inflatable Soapbox™). He offered the project to me because he felt that blogging and building a site would be something I’d enjoy. I have to admit, I wasn’t so sure of this at first.

For the rest of the story, visit Real World Mom!

RWM Butterfly

STBX Slam Ahead!

My STBX (soon-to-be-ex)–not nearly soon enough!–is being a total ASS!  (You can find some background on this bullshit here, here, here, and, last but not least, here.

He is under the impression that I should leave a 20-year marriage with nothing more than my clothing.  He is SO.  FREAKING. WRONG!

This man verbally and emotionally abused me for years, and I finally found the courage to leave him.  And he’s still trying to dictate how things will go.  I don’t think so! 

I have no problem with him keeping the house (I moved out because he wouldn’t and I had to escape.), and most of the contents in it.  He keeps asking me to sign a quick deed release (think that’s what it’s called) on the house.  And I’m supposed to just do it and walk away from a $100,000+ house with NOTHING?!  Again, I think NOT!

Unfortunately, he’s got one HUGE advantage over me:  He can afford to pay a lawyer, and I cannot.

I really, REALLY want the divorce to be final (and to be FREE of that SOB!), but I just can’t allow him to bully me (yet again) into having it all his way.

Either he doesn’t realize that it’s costing him a lot more to stay married to me than it would be to write a check and get the papers signed, or he’s just THAT freaking stubborn!

I’m going to suggest another settlement offer to him today (and I’m going to point out the fact that it’s costing him money to drag this out), but I won’t hold my breath.

Till next time…


It sold!  It sold!  It sold!
My Perpetual e-Bay auction is no more!

[doing the happy dance]

Will it Go Tomorrow?

Tanzanite Ring
I wrote earlier this week about my Perpetual e-Bay Auction. The auction ends tomorrow at 2:00 ET. There are still no bids, but there are three people watching it. Will it finally be sold tomorrow??

See the auction here: One of a Kind Tanzanite Ring!